I do alot of reading these days, especially God's word. I have also been reading lots of books written by grieving parents....I am searching for answers to some of the toughest questions. Searching for comfort.....searching for understanding.....searching for peace....searching for how to help Denny and Hill.......searching to help myself......trying to survive one moment at a time.
I feel so close to Wright when I am searching. It is at those times I talk to God and him the most. That is when I feel God's presence the most too. I feel I do not "fit" in anymore. I feel like a stranger living in my world. I have been forced into the unimagineable. Being back in NC after being gone for 18 months is hard, period....even if Wright was with us....the transition would be challenging. Now, the three of us are trying to reconnect, while grieving. Not to mention, floundering around to find a new normal. Whatever that means. Being home is not fun anymore. Its a harsh reminder that someone is missing. Our family is broken. Its always been the four of us. Mama and her 3 boys!! Oh! I just miss him so much. It still takes my breath when I see his bright smile or smell is blanket.
While searching.....I came across this....
“When God moves us out of our comfort zone —- into places that are way bigger than us, places that are difficult, hard, painful —- that even hurt — this is a gift.
We are being given a gift.
These hard places give us the gift of intimately knowing God — in ways that would never be possible in our comfort zones.
We’re in Christ’s zone when we’re out of our comfort zone.
And the Holy Spirit, our Comforter, comforts us when we step outside our comfort zone. It’s only in the uncomfortable places that we can experience the tenderness of the Comforter.
I guess that is what God wants sometimes. For us not to "fit" in so that we can rely on Him. So we can accept His gifts.So we can grow and nurture a more intimate relationship with Him. He wants us out of our comfort zone so we can be in His zone.
So thank you God for all your gifts!
Thank you for sending us earthly angels everyday to guide us in our close walk with You. Thanks for pulling us along and encouraging us every step. Thank you for never leaving our side, especially the time we need You most!!!
When God moves us out of our comfort zone.....this is a gift!!
